Changing lanes at Spaghetti Junction, I glanced at the car behind me and saw an old couple sharing a laugh. They looked relaxed and happy and I thought about how nice it must be to spend your “twilight” years together.
Lately I’ve been craving more quality time with my husband, time alone to finish sentences. I think about the six years we shared before kids and how much fun it was to have endless hours together. We enjoyed the heck out of life, on a grander scale. Twice we were completely unemployed for three months to backpack around South America and then to drive a Transit van around Europe.
We often talk about returning to London when we’re old and wrinkly. In this fantasy, our appearances will have changed (this time there will be no Brazilian bikini which doesn’t cover enough of my butt) but I never consider how it will feel to be old. I imagine us feeling physically just as chipper. I guess, like most people in their thirties, I take my youth for granted, especially when it comes to fitness.
You see, I still see exercise as a chore. My husband sets his alarm bright and early to work out each morning, and rather than feel proud of him, I just think about how I’m getting even less sleep. I’m happiest when he chooses to snooze, even though I know it’s not as good for his health to skip the gym. My workout gets squeezed into whichever part of the day makes it possible, yet I never feel lucky to get the opportunity to exercise.
Last week however, just in that moment the old couple smiled at each other, I had a real epiphany . I started to think about what we want out of our lives, and not just our lives RIGHT NOW. One day, God willing, we will finally retire together and the madness of these early years will be a distant memory. We will have time together and we will want to be as active as possible, to enjoy the heck out of life like we do now.
Time to encourage Tim to get out of bed at the crack of dawn. Time to cherish my daily workout and think about what I’m doing for my future health. Time to stop living always in the now, and to plan for being older versions of ourselves. I want to be as healthy as possible so that when we finally have quality time together, we make it the best time ever!